What's the word for when life pulls you in every direction possible?

I'm coming up empty from one moment to the next.
In the past two weeks, I've lived through a devastating death, a wonderful birth, and a beautiful marriage. More than anything it all makes you reflect on yourself more and what you maybe should have seen or been.
It's difficult to shut your brain off
and just stop the onslaught of thoughts and questions.
Too much liquor and a few friends always help.
But ultimately, we are alone in our grief
and maybe lucky enough to share our happiness.
Let's be thankful for the people we love...
especially the ones that hold us up and teach us who we are.